Lost

I feel so lost right now. Sad. Crazy.

You would think I could find some happiness some where inside but I can't. Carmon is gone for what they are saying could be 6 weeks. There was a tragic accident at one of their Arkansas facilities and he has to go down there to help run crews.

Normally I would probably look at it as a vacation for cooking, less laundry, but not now. Cam will be turning one. We will be having his first birthday party. Cam will more than likely start walking. No telling what other new things he will do in 6 WEEKS! His mom let him take her laptop so I plan on e-mailing pics and videos as often as new things occur. I will also be going to work June 1 for a week, taking a week of for Cam's b-day, and then working another week. If he ends up having to stay for a long time and doesn't get to come home for the birthday party we will be making a trip to see Daddy. The only problem with that is he will be working 7 days a week, 14 hour shifts.

The only benefit...$$$, but I'm sure Uncle Sam will take more than his share!